40 something

evening all, this is just a quick post but i was wondering if i could ask all you ladies out there something about being 40!!!!   Not sure if it is just me or whether some of you have experienced it too but

 I recently turned 40 at Easter and i have noticed a  few changes over time  like

1  i seem to get more restless during the night, especially twitchy legs.

2  running up to my monthly's i find myself becoming more emotional, whether its being tearful, irritable or more down in myself.

3  more anxious about what the future holds

4  it doesnt take me too long to become hot during housework

Now is this just me??? 

long time no see

Hi its me, yes i know its been a rather long time since my last post and if im honest i really didnt notice actually how long it was. The last time i posted Bear was about to start school and things were tough at home.
  I guess since then i havent really done anything exciting, home life can still be tough, being a carer you never really stop. The kids are maturing with my eldest just waiting for her exams results which she should get next thursday, eek, middle one well he is now in his last year at grammar school and little bear well he is going to go back to school in yr3!! i mean how did that all happen.
  Life just seems run away at times we are already half way through the summer holidays.
Its been a week since we came back from our annual hols to Wales, such a beautiful place to be, living in the fens its so nice to see the hills and waking up to hear the sheep going Baaa!! no traffic just piece and quiet. The rest of the summer holidays is filled with work, day trips out and the odd lie in.

So if you are surprised or pleased  to see me back after all this time, then why not leave me a little comment i would love to hear from you, to be honest not sure why i got so far behind as there is some wonderful pages here and everyone is so lovely and chatty. 

thoughts

hhhmm Depression what are your thoughts on his subject????
 I have just been catching up on some reading here on blogland and i was rather moved by a post by Heather over at Pink Milk.....
Heather has been suffering with depression for some time and  thought she would just write a post about it. Heather is not alone.

My husband has suffered with depression for the last 17 plus years, has it been easy to live with NO, do people treat you differently YES. 
Depression is such a complicated thing to understand for those who suffer from it and for those who dont. I have tried my hardest over the last 17 years to understand my husbands depression and even still i can find it hard to deal with. Emotionally it is a full time job. 
I have attended all his appointments to help him and myself to come to terms with the affects of this horrible illness. Years of trying to understand the signs.
You know in the past my husband has had to deal with his friends walking away and leaving him with no support apart from me, fellow work mates making it hard for him to do his job, 2 jobs which even resulted him in leaving the jobs he loved. The thought of when starting a family that social workers will come along and take your kids way. People thinking that your lazy, you should pull yourself together or even well i manage to pick myself up and get on with it.....

When depression sets in,  its not as simple as getting on with it, you need the right support, the right medication and the right kind of understanding... be supportive by being there, you dont even have to say anything just the thought of knowing someone is there to listen, through the good and bad days.
Yes some people do become better, but for a lot of people the fight continues even with the right medication you can still feel useless, not wanted and thinking that people would be a lot better off with out you there.
So before you think the worst in people or before you feel the need to run away, just have a second thought about the people fighting everyday just trying to look normal as everyone else.

reflections on life

hhmmm now what to write, i have seemed to of neglected my blog for sometime and you im sitting here just trying to think what to say......

you know over the last few years i have had a lot of ups and downs, with my emotions flying all over the place. Happy days, sad days, frustrating day  and days where you wonder why.

 Normally iam a happy go lucky girl which giggles alot but even then i have struggled.

My hubby still has very limited mobility and suffers pain all the way through the day, and i have seemed to of upset a certain friend with out realising it... this i have tried to sort out by talking, inviting her out etc with not much response. I used to think this friend was a friend i would have forever, someone i could talk to about anything, giggled,  cried etc but to have that all stop with out any understanding on what has gone wrong has been very upsetting. What to do about it??  i dont know, after trying i guess i have to just let it be and hope she may understand how much the whole thing has troubled and upset me.. 

You know growing older i thought we had a better understanding on what life has to deal us but i guess some people will still be there to puzzle you...

a little thankyou

As some of you may know i have a facebook page called Bearsfootprints, and to say THANKYOU to all my followers on here and on fb i have decided to give someone a chance to WIN £5.00 OFF anything that they would like to order. so for a chance to win then please do pop over to my fb page and share and like my page as once i get to 2500 likes i iwll pick a winner, for  a double chance then please leave a comment here too!!! Goodluck everyone enjoy the the sharing you never know you might well see some more lovely crafty folk x

Well thats another xmas done and tommorrow everything returns to normality as my little herd returns back to school, in someways it will be rather sad to not have them back at home but i know all three of them have missed their friends.
In the morning it will be back to the routine of rushing around for the 2 older ones to get done for 8am and then my littlest to get to school for 8.50am, and then silence will ascend to the house, ( sad face now on)...
Anyway i guess it will give me more time to to think of some things to make for my fb page and prehaps i can even sort some more things to go onto my folksy page, you never know.

So what has everyone been doing on here, as iam disgusted to say i havent been on here since September EEKKK! im so sorry for the long break, i really must get back into a routine. I must say everything has been taking its toll on me coming up to xmas, so over the xmas period i have truly enjoyed the break. Now i feel abit more ready for the forthcoming year.

Today i have been rather busy not with crafts but with re-felting the shed and then re tiling the bathroom floor, cant get much better then that cant it, if you think you can beat that, then please do let me know.

Right i must finish as i have been rather distracted by the lovely Miranda!!! Cheeky.

Gosh how quick has this week gone. Bears first week at school has been fantastic, he has loved every minute of it so far but then saying that he has only been doing afternoons. Next week it will be just mornings which i must say will be a bit strange as i havent had to do the school run for this time of the day for a long time, well since my eldest two were at primary school so thats now coming on for about 3 years!!!

How have the rest of you been this week if you have had little ones starting school. So far i have held it together but i definatley think its going to hit me more when he starts to go all day, i mean ALL day without my little man, i will miss him dearly x

A dear friend of mine has been teasing me tonight about some fabric which she has got, showing me the pictures of it then not telling me what she is going to make with it. Then letting me know that tommorrow there will be a fabric sale in one of our local shops too. Do you think we are abit addicted to fabric????? so easy to do as there is so many nice pieces out on the market at the moment, i must say though i do like a piece of cotton duck, sometimes you just need that bit of weight to things. 

Talking about fabrics ive been making some things lately with more lovely japanese linen fabric.....

what do you think???

There are some really nice linen fabrics about at the moment.

This years going too quickly now the kids are back at school i now need to think of some xmas stock for the up and coming stalls i have booked.

Right thats me done for tonight so for now good night x